Believe shredded into pieces.

It was a heart throbbing moment for me today.Have you ever felt suffocated, while breathing. It’s totally indescribable and intolerable, this kind of pain was totally unknown to me till today. I thought that at least I have glimpse of all kind of pain this life can throw on me, but there was a surprise for me today. A thing which I encountered today was a thing on which I had faith, believe that it ll never happen, it proved me that I am wrong in assuming​ things. I was totally blanked at that moment what to say?! or what to do?!, there was nothing coming in my mind at that time, my brain had just stopped working for a while, it’s thinking function has been disabled. It felt like getting hit by a lightning bolt,made me starstruck. I was on my nerves to fall down, my leg were getting weak, each cell of my body was shivering. My heartbeat was so fast that you can even feel it’s thud sound from my back, it was beating in irrelvant manner, I can't understand what was happening and why. My body was totally heated up to this point, there was oozing sound piercing through my eardrums making the situation more difficult to stand.
It was one of my priority on whom I believed with my true heart, feeling was terrible seeing it shattering in front your eyes and you can’t even stop it there was also a confuse feeling of helplessness. I thought it had been fortified by her will by her strength, I didn’t have any idea that it would be so easy for anyone to exploit it or she let it happen. In both of cases I was sabotaged by feeling,by believe, by every means it could be. Believing someone else,not  again results to the demolition of my faith. Neither I felt to for it anymore because it doesn’t worth that. I lost this battle but I didn’t lose this war and I LL not lose it because this this I had put my life on the stake. And this battle deserves nothing it only gives me reason to not lose anymore.
If somewhere in future it tries to come in my path, I ll make sure to tear it apart and bury it’s soul beneath this world with my bare hand. No one can defy my acceptance.
You all may be thinking what I mean by “it”. Even I can’t describe that by words I can only feel it. So just try to feel my words. You ll understand what I mean by all.
“It"- hope of having her back.