Lone diary

"Can you hold me?" While hearing the creak sounds of berths in train at midnight my heart echoed a question to my soul and my brain had panicked for a very good reason, because its not reacting. Is it dead? Sometimes my brain thinks an absurd thing to think in this critical point. It is sleep! Dead!, lost!, awake, or whatever in the world it could be JUST RESPONSE!!! My heart screamed loud, it echoed all over my brain. After taking sigh heart murmured "I ll collapse if you don't appear soon enough in time, help yourself out and help me its about existence of both of us" said while wiping and covering itself around veins and arteries to hold for a while and just wishing  that its loud scream might be enough to shaken up the soul even from dead. Bloody brain unaware of consequences and situation, smirk from its allotted Royal P alace. Search of soul to be continued......

There was a time when I use to picturize the scene when we ll meet again, I used to think that what I ll say to you? or what to ask to you? which pick up line I should use. Many things used to cross my mind and I only choose those lines which may seem pleasing to you, I try to mold my feelings my emotions in those words in such a way that they may not sound exaggerating to you or make me look desperate. I used to take care of each and every small details which doesn’t fit in the scene. My imaginations, my dreams the only place for me in this world where everything works according to me where I rule even without a throne. The moment your image comes to my mind, everything starts working according to you, you dethroned me even without saying something. I try to feel your emotions what you felt by those lines, by those words, by the emotions I expressed to you. I try to see things from your side , through your vision so that nothing goes wrong. I don’t want my efforts to go in vain. I

It was a heart throbbing moment for me today.Have you ever felt suffocated, while breathing. It’s totally indescribable and intolerable, this kind of pain was totally unknown to me till today. I thought that at least I have glimpse of all kind of pain this life can throw on me, but there was a surprise for me today. A thing which I encountered today was a thing on which I had faith, believe that it ll never happen, it proved me that I am wrong in assuming​ things. I was totally blanked at that moment what to say?! or what to do?!, there was nothing coming in my mind at that time, my brain had just stopped working for a while, it’s thinking function has been disabled. It felt like getting hit by a lightning bolt,made me starstruck. I was on my nerves to fall down, my leg were getting weak, each cell of my body was shivering. My heartbeat was so fast that you can even feel it’s thud sound from my back, it was beating in irrelvant manner, I can't understand what was happening and why