Lone diary

Somewhere in while getting older and acquiring maturity, we have come so far in our life that we have forget the meaning of morality and humanity. We had buried a seed of selfishness in the earlier days of our teenage which is sprouting now, it has made us a self centered person. We are jealous from everyone who are coming closer to  us or who are trying to surpass us, that jealousy doesn’t even spare the people who are dear to us. We are not even true to our closed ones when it comes to competition. I know in this society people think about their betterment, but why to back stab or betray the people who are dear to us or pull them down by all means to just be ahead of them and then boast your success infront of them. Then why you justify your profitable relation by fake emotions and a smile, just be real what you are!! don’t play with someone by keeping them in shadow. Be true, have a competition have a friendly environment don’t create a silent war zone where everyone is look

We need to bridle the horses of our thoughts which is only showing us the glamorous future we can have. Instead of that we should start working for it. We are not doing anything towards the goal which we have set. It is a work which we do for the future, but we do need to start doing in current period in order to achieve the glamorous life we want. But, Sometimes while driving through the luxurious streets of our imaginative future we come so far that we regret to do so because somewhere we know we hadn't taken a single step in past towards our imaginative future.. we gotta set goals & complete them coz unfinished goals only hurts.. and even setting many goals at the same time brings a burden for us which makes us weak and we start fearing & drop the chance of even trying for the thing we might have achieved from the 1st goal atleast..  we start looking too far. Take a deep breath. Make the foundation first & then create your empire over it.. so even if somewhere

Hey babes! Sorry for what I am going to say now. I have to confess it now otherwise it ll tear me apart if I don't do so. I can’t hate you or forget you when there are millions of reasons to love you & a burning desire to be with you. I don't know you have moved on or not ... Even if you say “YES” I would not believe 😅😅. I had also tried alot to move on. Most of the times I thought that I had actually moved on and you are nowhere in me, but my stubbornness/love never allowed me to get over of you. There was always a part of our Lovable moments sticked within me and it spreads in me like a virus..... Discovering all the memories in just one go like a chain reaction. Till now I didn't express anything because I  thought that you will come back to me one day but your rigidness has always proved me wrong. “How you manage to be so well in controlling your emotions and not expressing it?” It amaze me and leaves me in astonishment!! Sometimes I am really confused about wh

"Can you hold me?" While hearing the creak sounds of berths in train at midnight my heart echoed a question to my soul and my brain had panicked for a very good reason, because its not reacting. Is it dead? Sometimes my brain thinks an absurd thing to think in this critical point. It is sleep! Dead!, lost!, awake, or whatever in the world it could be JUST RESPONSE!!! My heart screamed loud, it echoed all over my brain. After taking sigh heart murmured "I ll collapse if you don't appear soon enough in time, help yourself out and help me its about existence of both of us" said while wiping and covering itself around veins and arteries to hold for a while and just wishing  that its loud scream might be enough to shaken up the soul even from dead. Bloody brain unaware of consequences and situation, smirk from its allotted Royal P alace. Search of soul to be continued......

There was a time when I use to picturize the scene when we ll meet again, I used to think that what I ll say to you? or what to ask to you? which pick up line I should use. Many things used to cross my mind and I only choose those lines which may seem pleasing to you, I try to mold my feelings my emotions in those words in such a way that they may not sound exaggerating to you or make me look desperate. I used to take care of each and every small details which doesn’t fit in the scene. My imaginations, my dreams the only place for me in this world where everything works according to me where I rule even without a throne. The moment your image comes to my mind, everything starts working according to you, you dethroned me even without saying something. I try to feel your emotions what you felt by those lines, by those words, by the emotions I expressed to you. I try to see things from your side , through your vision so that nothing goes wrong. I don’t want my efforts to go in vain. I

It was a heart throbbing moment for me today.Have you ever felt suffocated, while breathing. It’s totally indescribable and intolerable, this kind of pain was totally unknown to me till today. I thought that at least I have glimpse of all kind of pain this life can throw on me, but there was a surprise for me today. A thing which I encountered today was a thing on which I had faith, believe that it ll never happen, it proved me that I am wrong in assuming​ things. I was totally blanked at that moment what to say?! or what to do?!, there was nothing coming in my mind at that time, my brain had just stopped working for a while, it’s thinking function has been disabled. It felt like getting hit by a lightning bolt,made me starstruck. I was on my nerves to fall down, my leg were getting weak, each cell of my body was shivering. My heartbeat was so fast that you can even feel it’s thud sound from my back, it was beating in irrelvant manner, I can't understand what was happening and why